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Monday, August 28, 2006

something struck me whilst i was thumbing through pages of nicholas spark's at first sight .

the four letter word .
that many either love or hate .
or perhaps .
its a love hate affair after all .
((:

like me towards me-to-you bear .
MAJOR love hate affair .
hmmm .

digressing bout the love hate affair .
but yeah .
you prolly guessed it by now .
love . (:

funny how sucha simple ..
four letter word .
could actually be the cause of that much chaos in this world eh ?

i recall someone asking me the dreaded question a few days back .
what is love ?
good question .
i don't know ?
i mean .
who's to say what exactly love is ?
no ?
to some its just a frigging simple thing .
to others the harder they try to grasp for it .
the more it seems to torture them slowly. bit by bit.

but guess what ?
this was what i said .
"love ? its complex. stupid. dumb. annoying. hurtful. sweet. but yet smth u cannot live without . =]"

funny that there seem to be more negative than positive points in there eh ?
ah well .
that aside .

some people fall in love .
some people crash right into it .
some people can't seem to find the right pit to fall into .
and so here goes the stumbling ; falling ; crying and crawling .
some people wait for love to fall right in their face .
some just can't really be bothered less and think love is just plain dumb .
while some would rather day dream about what could be and what could've been .
others loathe the thought of commiting into something where you might most probably ger hurt once again somehow or another .. somehow .

so here's the thing .
why do people even fall in love ?
and why do they call it falling ?
can't it be like ..
something more positive hmm ?
why do people ..
choose to crash right into it .
knowing the consequences .
knowing the outcome ?
and why do some just assume the outcome .
before even going for it ?
and why do some ..
choose to worry about the future ..
and forget the present ?
or some ..
just plain worry too much to be able to really enjoy the process of it ?

to me i guess .
its simple .
love ; like all things ;
like life ..
its a process .
its a cycle .
its part of growing up .
agree ?

love's sweet .
but love's bitter too .
but yet its the bitterness that allows room for the simpler things in life .
love's complex ;
to me .. i guess .
cos us humans complicate things .
the concept is actually pretty simple .
and this is bound to seem easier said than done .
but really .
you either make it ; or break it .
and if you keep coming to the point where it just keeps breaking ..
i guess than its not meant to be .
the person's not the one .
and you should take a breather .
look around you ..
maybe you've neglected a door that's wide open for you ..
while staring so much at the door that slammed right shut in your face .
appreciate life ;
appreciate the simple things in life .
funny that its the simplest things that takes the most outta you .
love is stupid and dumb ..
cos it makes you seem like a dumbo !
you could just live and breathe love if you want to ..
and nothing else really matters .
you could have the sky falling at your feet and you would still be able to smile ;
a deep ; heartfelt ; warmth all around you smile .
no ?
love's annoying .
for the times you disagree .
for the times you say things that hurt yet somehow you know you don't mean it .
love's annoying cause it arrives with a crash and leaves with the wind .
love's annoying because it reducues most people to being somehow or another ;
handicapped .
you start hearing only the things you wanna hear ;
see only things you wanna see ;
pretty much reduces you into nothing but a simpleton .
no ?
and of cos ..
love's hurtful ..
cause if it doesn't hurt than it really isn't love at all .
its through the hurt that we learn to pick ourselves up .
its through the hurt inflicted that we learn to be responsible with
our thoughts ; words and actions .
love really ..
just seems like sucha simple yes or no thing at times .
no ?
its a matter of faith .
faith .. makes a world of difference .
from a little step of faith ;
up to a big leap .
without faith .
how could we even survive in this place ?
i don't think we could .
really .

so how exactly can something really this simple be something so complex ?
funny eh ?

and no .
i'm not unhappy .
i'm not upset .
i'm actually very much okay .
(:
its just the thoughts churning in my head ..
and i need to get them out .
well i could go on and on .
but i guess i should stop .
till the time where words shall flow right through my fingers and into this space . ((:
good night .

;elysium.
11:19:00 PM